Cancer Scares, Antidepressants and Completely changing my Music tastes.
For ages my music taste was pretty clear cut. If it has a messy white logo printed on a black shirt with some image meant to shock I was there. Over the past 5 months my life changed in ways I never would have dreamed of at the beginning of the year.
First I got on anti depressants, I've been in them before but I was never stoked on the outcomes I experienced in terms of side effects. In May though I found a new PCP who recommended a new stack of daily meds and it works. Ever since I noticed my music taste changing. I used to joke that if the bpm passed 70 or 80 I was suspect of a piece of music, after the meds I wanted fast but easy to listen to music. I found Jungle and Drum and Bass and the corner of the genre stuff that really clicked with me and completely swapped up what was making me feel good.
Then I get the call. The big lump in my foot they x-rayed might be cancer, they can't explain what it might be. I do the literal worst thing and Google "life expectancy for bone cancer" and cry realizing I might not outlive my dog. After what I would generously call the worst month of my life I was sober for I finally get told "it's probably not nothing but you're not dying". Cry some more, on the way home decide to check out some black metal and now that clicks as well.
I don't know why this happened but new genres have stuff you might like and sometimes life finds peculiar ways to move forward.